I can't believe that 4 years have passed so soon ut it's seldom a day goes by without me thinking about my big bro ...

Received a letter from the Ambulance Service today explaining the actions taken by the Paramedics which ultimately ended with your death Bobbly. I dont know if it has helped or not, i still feel that you should be with us, that you should'nt have died, you were doing so well, you were enjoying your life for the first time in years. I would give anything to have you back here with me, i miss you so much. Everyday is hard, trying to cope without your happy, smiling face...Crunchie misses you too! I hope, one day, we will be together again...i love you forever Bobbly!

It is the funeral on Tuesday, 19 April, 2011...it is going to be one of the most painful days of my life so far, i am finding it very hard to accept that i will never see him again, the thought of seeing the coffin, knowing he is dead within it, is just one thought too many for me right now....